faith, god, hugs, mom, mommy, parent, Uncategorized, women

Love with Two Hands

Finally. It’s just after dinner and I have a moment to sit down but not at the counter, or my desk, or the toy car-covered living room floor, or the dinner table, but on the couch in my living room. Work is finished, laundry is folded (well, probably - I’m at least pretending it is),… Continue reading Love with Two Hands

bible, faith, god, trust god, Uncategorized, women

Little Red Wagon

A wise friend shared a story with me years ago that really stuck. I'm sure you've experienced that too. For one reason or another you just relate to it and it resurfaces often.  I can't take credit for this story...but I'm going to tell it like its mine. Just so we are clear...it's not. So… Continue reading Little Red Wagon

child loss, depression, faith, god, grief, healing, heaven, mom, mommy, mother, parent, pregnancy after loss, psalm23, unexpected death, women

I Sang A Song – Again

I sang a song – again.I sang a silly song today, it went a little something like this…”chicky-chicken nuggets, cheesy-cheese cubes. Peas and car-rots, peas and car-rots, yum yum yum in the tum tum tum.”  Obviously, Kanye will defer to me as the “musical genius” from now until the end of time. I have mad… Continue reading I Sang A Song – Again

child loss, faith, first son, god, grief, heaven, hugs, infant loss, Rainbow baby, second birthday

His 2nd Birthday

His 2ndBirthday.Today he would be two.  My sweet boy. He should be toddling around the house, tormenting his big sisters, cuddling his baby brother. Making us laugh, because of course he would be the most hilarious toddler you’ve ever met.  I can sometimes picture him. Other times the image of my son is so far… Continue reading His 2nd Birthday

faith, genesis 9:13, grief, healing, infant loss, loss, Rainbow baby, trust god

He loves me, He loves me not…

He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not (written 5/24/16)Remember playing the game when you were a child? Reciting the phrase “he loves me, he loves me not” as I plucked the petals from a poor unsuspecting flower. Thinking of some silly little boy who I wanted to return my affections, and hoping, longing with each… Continue reading He loves me, He loves me not…

child loss, faith, infant loss, stages of grief

The Stages of Grief and the One They Forgot

The Stages of Grief and the One They Forgot (May 27, 2015)The very outdated copy of my undergraduate psychology book uses the Kubler-Ross Model to describe the stages of grief.  You’ve probably seen them before: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance.  As an English Language Arts teacher, it almost pains me to say this, but… Continue reading The Stages of Grief and the One They Forgot