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Happy Fifth Birthday: Celebrating The Birth of A Son Who Didn’t Live

Happy Fifth Birthday, John Karl! I Googled "best gifts for 5 year old boys" because I have no idea what you might be into. The image of your sweet baby face sits in my memory and I will never forget the feel of your body in my arms or the kick of your feet in my… Continue reading Happy Fifth Birthday: Celebrating The Birth of A Son Who Didn’t Live

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His 2nd Birthday

His 2ndBirthday.Today he would be two.  My sweet boy. He should be toddling around the house, tormenting his big sisters, cuddling his baby brother. Making us laugh, because of course he would be the most hilarious toddler you’ve ever met.  I can sometimes picture him. Other times the image of my son is so far… Continue reading His 2nd Birthday

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He loves me, He loves me not…

He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not (written 5/24/16)Remember playing the game when you were a child? Reciting the phrase “he loves me, he loves me not” as I plucked the petals from a poor unsuspecting flower. Thinking of some silly little boy who I wanted to return my affections, and hoping, longing with each… Continue reading He loves me, He loves me not…

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The Stages of Grief and the One They Forgot

The Stages of Grief and the One They Forgot (May 27, 2015)The very outdated copy of my undergraduate psychology book uses the Kubler-Ross Model to describe the stages of grief.  You’ve probably seen them before: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance.  As an English Language Arts teacher, it almost pains me to say this, but… Continue reading The Stages of Grief and the One They Forgot

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What I’m Ready to Share About Infant Loss: Demise & Wicked Emotion

If you know me at all, you know that I am an open book. I quite literally will tell you anything you want to know about me. I have little, really nothing, to hide.  This blog post reveals some of the darkest pages to become a part of my life book.  I will warn you.… Continue reading What I’m Ready to Share About Infant Loss: Demise & Wicked Emotion